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heaven can wait

say their names.

nigel.

tyrell.

blake.

jamel. 

i wonder if they know 

that they prepared us to be fighters

that their sticks and their stones

taught us to dare fight the fire. 

i wonder if they know

that we turn broken glass to glitter

that every wave to crash our boat

teaches us how to master rivers. 

if they ever learned how we survive

freedom would finally stand a rare chance

‘cause they’d see the magic that we design

from the soil tilled with our bare hands.

if they ever learned how we stay alive

they might just let go of a little power

‘cause they’d see how it feeds our might

our talent to turn years out of a few hours. 

see, beyonce finds solace

by singing “heaven couldn’t wait for you”

but heaven can wait just a damn minute

when we’ve been patient with days so cruel. 

‘cause nigel was 15

and tyrell was only 20

when they decided their time here was over

they’ve suffered enough and they’ve suffered plenty. 

and blake was 18

and jamel was only 9 

when waking again just ached like hell

and sleeping forever maybe was fine. 

don’t you know the world chews us up

and then the world spits us out

the world’s vernacular comes from our ancestors

but you won’t ever credit their style.

don’t you know we make magic from madness

that we name all of the colors

the world takes after the fashion

of our royal queer and trans mothers. 

we are the holy descendants

we have the armor of brown skin

we are the angels with no heaven 

we are the angels with no wings. 

say their names.

nigel.

tyrell.

blake.

jamel. 

thy nguyen