being a womxn means mastering the art of pretending
that everything is ok
that everything is normal
that pain is forgiven
that pain is forgivable
that joy is accessible
that joy is unconditional
that comfort is sufficient
that comfort is sustainable.
‘cuz
womxn
is synonymous with waiting
the kind that has you feeling like
you’re wading
until you drown and become water.
see,
water is
needed
cherished
longed for
tasted.
spilled down
pushed through
thrown out
taken.
summoned
see-through
unseen
wasted.
shapeless
empty
purchased
naked.
sometimes
i am the water
and sometimes
i am just water.